Why am I here? This is a question that I think we all ask ourselves at one time or another. When I was younger I used to think there was a hidden camera following me and that one day all bad things would come to light. I went through some hard times and always figured everything would be rectified because surely someone (god) would go through the play-by-play and it would just be awesome! No worries right?
As I got older I realized that wrongs are not always made right. Life is not a movie where the ending is always just right. So what is life? Why are we here? I have come to think of life as a perfect gift because it is not a thing. This gift didn’t cost millions of dollars. You can’t put is on display like a status symbol. It isn’t the most expensive thing you put in your closet. It is what is happening RIGHT NOW. The past is just a memory, thoughts flying around in your head that you will never actually relive. The future may never be. Life is what you are experiencing at THIS VERY MOMENT. The minute I came to this realization, I decided that I wanted to “BE IN THE MOMENT!” mentally. This reminds me of the yellow fish (Bubbles) in Finding Nemo, holding on to his bubbles. Life’s moments, like bubbles, are fleeting. You can try to hold on to them but you can’t. I definitely don’t want to hang on to negative memories. My life’s goal is to appreciate living and breathing and taking part in wonderful new memories. I know this may sound a bit grandiose especially since life is not all beautiful. But even through the hard times there are discoveries about us, our loved ones and just living that are worth remembering. I hope to live a life that is worth remembering, because in the end don’t we all want to feel like we have left some sort of positive, meaningful mark on the world we leave behind?
This weeks challenge was fun because I finally got a chance to sit down and organize my family photo album. I found so many old memories and it was pretty hard to select just a few.
In this first image we have my son with our two mini-dachshunds. The day I brought these brothers home, my son was crazy for them. His exact words, “This’ll be a day we’re never going to forget!” He quickly bonded with Reece’s, the chocolate one and has been completely responsible for him since day one. These doxies are going on 3 years and silly as ever. Reece’s loves to play “sniff/fetch” . This is where we hide a toy and watch him literally go into non-stop SNIFFer Mode until he finds it. And he always does! Chikko is the little dappled one. He was the runt of the litter and is a good 2 lbs smaller than Reece’s. Because he is so small combined with the dachshund physique (short & stout with an almost regal, protruding chest), He trots about aloof except with a goofy grin. He gets all the attention when we travel because of his unique markings. Reece’s is just fine with that. Reece’s is only concerned with my son. They truly are a joy and have taught us so much about life.
Why I want to be more like my dog:
They wake up every morning with an abundant zest for what the day will bring, That is LIVING!
There is practically nothing we could do that would stop them from loving us, that is unconditional love in its simplest form. Who said love had to be complicated anyway!
There is not a day that goes by that they do not put a smile on our face. They remind me daily to attempt to put a smile on someones face.
I took the next photo at a local water reservoir we like to call a “lake” (Lake Hefner. ) The reservoir is surrounded by walking and cycling trails, a golf course and eateries, along with scenic vistas. My son loves to peer through the telescope to see what’s going on the other side of the lake. I picked this as one of the pictures for this challenge because one of my dearest friends is standing with him and enjoying his excitement. Isn’t that one of the main things families do for us? They are present to bear witness and take part in our journey. The events we experience in life are not worth experiencing alone. That is why we are blessed with family.
This brings me to my last image which is bittersweet. In making this photo I managed to break a very special hand mold that my son made when he was six years old. It truly broke my heart to see it shatter because of my butter fingers, agh! This is an image of some of the items my son has made for me in the recent years. My personal favorites are the clay rose he gave me for mother’s day and the mobile made of popsicle sticks and a hanger. Only family would see the true value in these items. Family looks beyond your limitations and sees your potential. Family embraces your ideas and realizes their worth. Family cherishes your every achievement, no matter how mundane. Cheers!
Please Excuse me as I vent. This week I have been struggling with the Idea of “letting go”. Sure it makes perfect sense that holding on to resentments is bad. Bad for your spirit, bad for your relationships, bad for your health, bad, bad, bad. But how does one truly, “let go”? I remember there used to be a television show that used to come on pretty late at night. It was a reality show that oftentimes had women, but sometimes couples, in a “live in” situation where they went away to deal with their “issues”. I want that. I am a work in progress and sometimes I feel like there is an overwhelming amount of work to do. I want to get it all done so I can be happy already! Maybe it is because I am a woman, I just can’t let things go.
On a positive note, I am thankful for the strength to deal with life’s struggles. I know that while life at times seems unfair, I will get through each chapter with a lesson learned! I am thankful that this journey is mine to take. I have made very good strides with my weight loss journey. I am learning so much about myself. My “accountability challenge” is going well. I look forward to my next weigh in as I expect to see some very good results.
I will leave you guys with a quote that I sometimes use with my pups so take it with a grain of salt 🙂
“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” Steve Jobs
Beautiful Person = fearless, hopeful, lovers Note: NOT whiners, when they talk they are actually saying something not just pointing to negativity.
I know no one is perfect. Everyone has their moments but there is always that person that seems to feel that the only way to hold a conversation is to find something/someone to complain about. It’s all good until you are the person being hated on. Right?